Lately I’ve been working myself up into a giant ball of stress and insanity. I’ve been getting extraordinarily upset over things that I have no control over and I really need to fucking stop.
I actually called Jeremy yesterday in tears. Did I mention I was at work? Ugh.
I was supposed to run a 5 mile race with my old college roomie (which I should probably stop saying since we haven’t been roommates in about 8 years but that’s how I’ll always refer to her). I really wanted to do this but…
(1) I forgot that the race was THIS Saturday (I definitely thought it was after St. Patty’s Day) so I am not really prepared.
(2) Being unprepared scares me because I don’t want to re-injure myself. I’ve been easing myself back into running post-marathon/ITBS so I haven’t run on pavement yet. I’m still very scared.
(3) I’ve been a giant bundle of crazy this week and could really use the extra day to try to find some peace.
I tend to stress over things that I can’t change or control. I really should take a page out of the AA handbook and recite the Serenity Prayer:
God, grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change; The courage to change the things that I can; And the wisdom to know the difference.
And no, I’m not an addict but I think these words can apply to my life.
This weekend I plan to RELAX. I think I need some serious retail therapy (any takers?), a good book (currently reading Craig Ferguson’s “American on Purpose” — I frickin’ love this man) and a lot of sleep.
Ew – this totally sounds very Debbie Downer. So here’s a picture of my dog Petie as a frenchman.