That was me yesterday – the awkward grownup at a birthday party.
My nephew (in-law) turned 2 this month and his birthday party was yesterday. He’s super cute and amazingly polite (nothing is sweeter than hearing a 2 year old say “thank you”).
While the party wasn’t spilling over with children – there were approximately 4 kids (around the age of 2), their parents, my in-laws and basically just about everyone there was a parent or at least good with children.
Then there was me. I am incredibly awkward around small children. I think they’re cute but I just don’t know how to interact with them. I think I spent most of the party standing against a wall not interacting with the kids because I just felt so weird.
I also strained my lower back muscle a couple of weeks ago (playing broomball) and it apparently hasn’t really healed. I don’t think my continuing to work out and taking yoga has helped (in fact, my Chiropractor told me to STOP THE YOGA!) but I hate sitting still.
So – I spent the party standing againt the wall because I’m awkward with kids, I couldn’t bend down to pick up the dogs or anything… but then…
My sister-in-law was bouncing her son up and down. He was loving life and then she said, “Aunt Kim wants to bounce you!”
And what was I going to say? All eyes were on me! I didn’t want to be an asshole so I bounced him. And it was cute and fun! But it hurt like hell. And holy moly – what a workout.
I often wonder if I could ever be a mom. It seems to come so naturally to some girls — they play with kids and it doesn’t seem forced or weird. Me? I don’t know what to do.
So bouncing my nephew? While super cute and adorable — it caused another back spasm.
I don’t think I’m cut out for this shit. Maybe motherhood isn’t for me.