** Yarg! WordPress ate most of this post so I had to reblog it… but I’m tired so this is a much shorter version than what I originally wrote. Sorry! **
Today was my first day back at work. While I was a bit weepy all morning – I didn’t bawl my eyes out like I thought I would. I will say, however, that I got to work 45 minutes later than I intended. Having a baby and getting everything prepped is extremely time consuming.
And while it felt weird to be back at work – it also almost felt like I wasn’t gone for 3 months. The office still felt the same.
I surrounded myself with pictures of Annmarie. I soaked in all of the compliments from co-workers telling me that I didn’t even look like I had a baby (I worked hard to get back to my prepregnancy size so I will happily accept these compliments!). But the best part of the day was the receiving several text message updates from my daycare provider.
I received this one around 9am:
“She is so good, just fell asleep. She was a little bit fussy and I had to change her diaper and give her a bottle.”
Then around 11am:
“Just woke up 1/2 hour ago… now just chill’n” followed by, “She is very good and didn’t cry when she woke up.”
Lastly around 1:15pm:
“She cried for the last 10 minutes and now she is asleep.”
As lame as this may be – these texts and pictures got me through the day. I was happy that Annie seemed to be doing just fine. I chuckled at the pictures (I love that she has the same sleeping pose and obviously had to change outfits at least once).
I’m just hoping that the guilt I feel will go away soon.